"If it's provable we can kill it."
Or, the only things I hate more than being unemployed are a**hole recruiters, and living in Richmond VA
Published on September 26, 2006 By EmperorofIceCream In Misc
Yesterday a 17 year old girl in a wrinkled white skirt told me I was too smart to do the job that another office-bimbo-emptyheaded little Fothermucker had contacted me about at the weekend, gooing syrupy nonsense about an 'interview' Monday (yesterday) and being 'placed' by Wednesday (tomorrow). Despite my firm intention not to allow my hopes to be raised by these parasites (the contract I would have signed was not with the company wanting a CAD operator - CircuitCity - but with the staffing agency) I fell for the same tired schtick again. They need someone (if the opportunity ever really existed) to convert their paper-based floorplans to digital format. The only thing less challenging than drawing floorplans in AutoCAD is drawing empty boxes. It was the perfect foot-in-the-door opportunity and, despite my resolution, I found myself thinking of all the things I could do with that kind of position - especially as the first bimbo had told me I would be the only CAD person in the office. I found myself thinking, again, of eventually being able to set up my own little CAD team and running it as it ought to be run.

Oh yes. Despite my determination not to hope I found myself doing just that. Hoping and dreaming. Again. What I now think happened is that some bright spark at CircuitCity decided the previous Friday afternoon to get their floorplans transferred to digital format in order for him to crawl even further up his boss's ass; then he commissioned Bimbo Inc to find a drafter, only to have the idea shot down by the Accountants on Monday morning. That kind of sh*t goes on all the time. I knew someone once who turned up to start a job, only to be told that the job no longer existed. Working for Transco, in the UK, I was shown a wall along which were stacked boxes and boxes, each one stuffed with field engineers drawings of gaspipes that had been put in the ground but not entered into the mapping system. Seven years worth of work, that the Accountants wouldn't pay to have digitized.

Does anyone other than me think it's criminally dangerous for there to be unrecorded gas transmission lines in the ground, pipes full of explosive gas, without there being any indication at all of location, depth, extent, contiguity? The UK is teeny, and other than extremely high voltage transmission lines and towers all the different utilities have their networks underground. It astonishes me that there hasn't yet been a catastrophic explosion in an urban area as a consequence of this neglect. But there will be, eventually. It's simply a matter of time.

Less than a month later they cancelled the project I'd been hired to work on - searching for and recording the position of decommissioned asbestos-clad pipes that had been 'replaced' with plastic pipes but which were still in the ground. It was meant to be a six month project at minimum; there was talk of extending it to a year or even eighteen months. A little less than three months in and the Accountants decided it cost too much and had to be shut down - with Christmas a week away.

Unemployment benefits are organized much differently in the UK, and are not nearly so simple to claim and receive. Getting everything sorted in the week before Christmas is rather more difficult than squeezing blood from a block of granite. I lived on my mother's generosity over that one, much though I hated to do it, because I'd already exhausted my meagre surplus in the period between the completion of my previous contract and gaining the new one with Transco.

But I have to say that when I worked for Transco a second time, a couple of years later, they treated me well - as did the company that supplied them with my services and with whom I ultimately got my last job in the UK before leaving to come to the USA. I worked in Wolverhampton (which is a cool town) and stayed in an excellent hotel at the company's expense, travelling home with a co-worker each weekend.

Recruiters.... I hate them. Only rarely do they know anything about CAD or GIS, they parrot job descriptions, and then have no idea even of what type of software is being used - let alone which version. In general they have absolutely no interest in the contractors who work for them beyond their turning up to work; they almost invariably side with the employers they service in any dispute; even more rarely do they offer medical coverage, and I've yet to hear of one that offers paid time for statutory holidays. Which means that if you can't afford to lose a day's pay you have to work ten or twelve hour shifts (when you're allowed to that is) to make up the difference over the days preceeding the holiday. Or you take the loss and grin and bear it.

I've never been good at grinning and bearing it and it gets harder and harder to do with each passing year that I remain a contractor. I'd be willing to take a serious drop in the hourly rate if it meant I could get hired permanently - because I know I'd work so damned hard for whoever gave me the chance (if only out of simple gratitude) that I'd make the loss back again.

Contracts... contracts... and those goddamned recruiters. If I hadn't proven 'too smart' for the job I would have signed the damn thing, but it would have made me a virtual bond-slave of the agency to do so. Apart from the rage I fell into after my experience with these buffoonettes(my 'interview' consisted in nothing more than sitting in an office for more than two hours, waiting for the bimbos to present me with forms to be completed or waiting for them to come back to take the damn things away, during which time I discovered that the agency has absolutely no experience in dealing with CAD-based employment) and the foul night I and Sabrina spent in consequence of that rage, I'm glad now that the job wasn't offered and I didn't sign my soul away to a crew of incompetent devils. I didn't mind that they were devils, all recruiters are, but their incompetence, their abominably fixed plastic smiles through which every word any of them uttered was forced, and their utter indifference to the fact that I wasted two hours in their repellant company, finally brought me to the limits of my self-control.

I went home, got horribly drunk, and behaved like an utter prick for the rest of the day and the whole of the evening. I had days like that in the UK, only I lived alone then so there was no one else to be afflicted by my vile moods. There were occasions, close to the end of my time there, when I'd stand in the kitchen of my apartment and bang my head against the wall till my forehead was bloody. It was do that or go out into the streets and start fights. Others would have started fights - but I've worked in a prison and never want to see the inside of one again - unless I can be certain of being held in perpetual solitary confinement.

It wasn't simply the indignity of being told by a teenager with a plastic smile that I was too well-qualified and experienced for the job. There's the ongoing indignity of living in this filthy ghetto, having to keep one eye on every car that passes to be sure I'm not about to find myself in a drive-by shooting (it's happened here before); it's the indignity of being told by the useless-ass bitch that now owns this hateful little duplex that she 'wants to take the building in a whole new direction' and that in consequence, despite the fact that we've never been so much as late paying the rent, despite the fact that I paid $250 to improve the fencing and that much or more again to redecorate the filthy mess this place was when we took it on, we are persona non grata and must leave, because we and our dogs don't fit in with whatever she imagines she's going to do with her property.

I can't imagine what she thinks she's going to do with the place - unless it's to rent it to Section 8 cases. No young upwardly mobile Black couples are going to rent here. Crazy Kathy next door would be enough on her own to make sure of that. She plainly doesn't want Whites renting, as she's already seen off the only other White guy on the street, our ex-next-door neighbour Paul - which was no loss as the crazy faggot hated my dog Franky, tried to kick him once, and raised his fist in Sabrina's face. But add to Kathy's craziness Pinky our gun-toting neighbour across the street, the gangsters on the corner four houses away, the drug deals made in broad daylight for anyone to see, the cars that either screech by at breakneck speed - or crawl along really, really slowly, while the occupants give you the evil eye (those are the ones that creep me out) and the general air of degenerate dilapidation that the entire neighbourhood is soaked in, and I guarantee you that no one who had any other choice at all would live here.

I lived in some deprived areas in Britain, or so I thought, over the 43 years of my life there. But in all of those 43 years I was never once propositioned by a whore while buying from a store or pumping gas. I'd been living in the South Side of Richmond for a week when I was propositioned by a whore as I pumped gas at the 7/11. It's happened twice since then: once at the Shell gas station (where I've also been offered anything and everything from Crack to my pick of any of the girl's working for the pimp that used to hang out there), and once as I sat in the Cougar in the parking lot of the Dollar Store. I've also been asked to dispense paper towels to a beggar so he could wipe his ass after taking a shit behind the car wash at the Shell station, too.

What kind of uncouth slob walks up to a complete stranger to beg for paper to wipe his ass with so he can take a sh*t in public?

But then, this is Richmond, the only town I've ever lived in that constantly reeks of sh*t because the City burns human waste (a pity I can't burn the human waste that walks by my yard gate every day); the only city I've ever lived in where the roads are in worse condition after they've been repaired than they were before; the only city I've ever lived where I can stand in the corner of my back yard and watch a man get robbed at gun point in broad daylight, where beggars hang around gas stations and sh*t in public and toothless crack-whores dressed in filthy rags ask if you want to take them back to motel rooms. I'd sooner f*ck ten day old roadkill, thank you.

Richmond is filthy and stinking and decay is everywhere you look. And even though it's obviously still inhabited it feels derelict, abandoned and lifeless - but it's the living who are ghosts here, or if not actually so, then who look and act as if they are ghosts -when they are not acting as malevolent thugs, that is. Perhaps there's something in the water here, a consequence of the ancient, decrepit pipes it flows through, most of them well over a century old.

The city is senile, incontinent, oozing filth and corruption from every orifice; run by incompetents; populated by crazies, thugs, whores, pimps, and dope dealers.

I DON'T LIKE RICHMOND.

Can you tell?

Comments
on Sep 26, 2006
GRRRRRR. Where has the edit button gone?
on Sep 27, 2006
I'm sorry it's so rough for you guys right now. Not the neighborhood, you knew that, but everything else. It's horrible that woman who owns the place now don't consider you guys good tenants. You'ld think that someone who is able to pay the rent would be good tenant! I sincerely hope that things will progress for you soon. I know it's difficult. I told Sabrina on her blog that I'll check around this side and see what's here and let you know.
on Sep 27, 2006
To: foreverserenity

Thank you for the good thoughts. I've got past my rage for now, though it's never really that far away. It's embarrassing to think of the drunken ass I made of myself yesterday, and mortifying to think of how badly I behaved towards Sabrina. It isn't fair that she should pay the price for my frustration. I dread even the possibility of being homeless. I've been there once before in my life and it was not a good experience - and that dread was also at the root of my resentmen and anger on seeing the slum-lord and her idiot crew once again creeping around the yard, knowing that when they finally left they'd fail, again, to secure the gate properly, putting the dogs at risk.

It's no big deal to have to check each time before letting them in the yard - but neither is it outside of the realms of possibility, or courtesy, for the useless ass c*nt and 'the fambly' (as we call them) to learn to secure the gate. To this day I have not forgiven my cousin John for putting me on the street when I was 17 and otherwise completely homeless. I still have nothing but ill-will towards him and it delighted me to learn recently that has life has been mostly a disaster: his wife abandoned him, his son is a criminal, and to add insult to injury his wife went on to lose weight drastically, found herself a toyboy, and started a new and highly successful career. Though from what I've been told she remains as miserable as she was when I was unfortunate enough to know her.

I have nothing but ill-will for 'the fambly', too. May everything they turn their hands to fail disastrously.

But all is not absolute gloom. Sabrina's job has replaced the money we lost when I was laid off. Tomorrow we're going to go look at house we might rent - a house, even. If the unemployment checks dry up before I get another GIS/CAD job I'll flip burgers or wash out restrooms if I have to. And I will get that CAD/GIS job. Eventually.
on Sep 27, 2006
You've got a PhD in philosophy, don't you? If that's the case why don't you go for a standard desk job? If you can use Word you can work for the government. Just don't mention the PhD and stick to talking up your Bachelors and you should be okay.
on Sep 27, 2006
Thank you for the good thoughts. I've got past my rage for now, though it's never really that far away. It's embarrassing to think of the drunken ass I made of myself yesterday, and mortifying to think of how badly I behaved towards Sabrina. It isn't fair that she should pay the price for my frustration. I dread even the possibility of being homeless. I've been there once before in my life and it was not a good experience - and that dread was also at the root of my resentmen and anger on seeing the slum-lord and her idiot crew once again creeping around the yard, knowing that when they finally left they'd fail, again, to secure the gate properly, putting the dogs at risk.


I understand. Somtimes those closest to us are the ones we lash out at. Having been there, done that myself and having been on the receiving end of that I understand. To err is human. etc. ect.


Yeah, how hard is it to close the gate properly! Geech! Some people don't think of others. Then again, maybe that's their little way to get your goat because they can't otherwise. You know how people are!


It's no big deal to have to check each time before letting them in the yard - but neither is it outside of the realms of possibility, or courtesy, for the useless ass c*nt and 'the fambly' (as we call them) to learn to secure the gate. To this day I have not forgiven my cousin John for putting me on the street when I was 17 and otherwise completely homeless. I still have nothing but ill-will towards him and it delighted me to learn recently that has life has been mostly a disaster: his wife abandoned him, his son is a criminal, and to add insult to injury his wife went on to lose weight drastically, found herself a toyboy, and started a new and highly successful career. Though from what I've been told she remains as miserable as she was when I was unfortunate enough to know her.I have nothing but ill-will for 'the fambly', too. May everything they turn their hands to fail disastrously.


Karma can be a bitch at times! Heh!



But all is not absolute gloom. Sabrina's job has replaced the money we lost when I was laid off. Tomorrow we're going to go look at house we might rent - a house, even. If the unemployment checks dry up before I get another GIS/CAD job I'll flip burgers or wash out restrooms if I have to. And I will get that CAD/GIS job. Eventually.


I'm really glad to hear that! You certainly will. I've been praying for you guys. Don't even make a jaded comment!! And I promised to check out something on my end to see if they know anything, the guy should be back tomorrow, I'll let you know.
on Sep 27, 2006
Since I have no idea what to say to give you hope I shall just grab you and give you one hell of a manly hug.
on Sep 27, 2006
give you one hell of a manly hug.


not a sweaty one!   I feel sure HRH will not appreciate it!   

YRH - I have sent 3 links for jobs to the pearlcaster e address, I do not know if any of them are all that suitable, but hopefully at least one would be.

You have to hold it together and you two stick together, do not push each other away form the other. It will come right.

It is good you have had a good rant and rage to get the anger and frustration off your chest, now you need to put some positive energy into yourself and the job search! Sorry I am sounding like I am preaching to you. I will continual to crawl the net as well.

Just know that we are all thinking of you both and sending positive energy and thoughts your way. Hang in there.


on Sep 27, 2006
To: all

Thank you for these kindly thoughts (and the hug). We had a much better day today. We went and looked at the house, which we both really like; I got the glimmer of a suggestion of a remotely tentative possibility of being employed again (which is all I need to revive my flagging hopes) and we had a splendid feast at the 3rd Street Diner - a bowl of fries in a very excellent brown gravy and a lamb gyro for me, and pastrami on rye with fried zucchini for Sabrina, washed down with a pitcher of very good brown ale.

Even Richmond has the occasional good point to recommend it lol.
on Sep 28, 2006
I got the glimmer of a suggestion of a remotely tentative possibility of being employed again

excellent.... but yeah, they sure don't let you know right from the get go, do they?